Friday, January 20, 2017

Invictus

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Out of the night that covers me, 
Black as the pit from pole to pole, 
I thank whatever gods may be 
For my unconquerable soul. 

In the fell clutch of circumstance 
I have not winced nor cried aloud. 
Under the bludgeonings of chance 
My head is bloody, but unbowed. 

Beyond this place of wrath and tears 
Looms but the Horror of the shade, 
And yet the menace of the years 
Finds and shall find me unafraid. 

It matters not how strait the gate, 
How charged with punishments the scroll, 
I am the master of my fate, 
I am the captain of my soul. 


{William Ernest Henley}

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

The Sky

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One day, I met a young girl stood by herself. She looked up at the sky as she traced her hand following the clouds above our heads. Her face was flat; I could see no emotion. But somehow, out of nowhere, I could feel as if she is that one cheerful being. Or maybe she was, I thought.

I kinda approached her, made my way next to her hesitantly. She didn't move a little. I sighed, doing the same thing as her, looking at the sky.

"The sky is always blue, isn't it?" I rambled.

"No."

"Okay..."

"It's pitch black."

"What?"

"Pitch black." She looked down, moving her head towards me, "The sky is pitch black. That's why I look at the sky every day."

"I don't get it?"

"I wish I could put all of my thoughts in a jar. I hate the nights where I feel so hollow inside; empty and out of place. Did, it made me happy," she sighed, heavily breathed, "but for some unknown reason, it scares me. That's what crossed my mind the very first second of whatever circumstances lies behind."

"Wow. I don't know. You're very much a talker..."

"Surprised?"

"A little."

"Good then. I rarely do that."

"I know... but why, me, all of sudden?"

"Do you think I never realized that you've stopped by looking at me probably wondering why this girl out of nowhere staring at the sky since forever?"

"I do. Sorry..." I kept fidgeting, feeling as unsure as I may seem, "..if I bother you."

"Not at all." I stared, not sure what she was talking about. "I've been waiting too."

"Waiting?" I ask as she nodded her head, smiling by her heart.

"Yeah.."

"I am all ears." trying to convince her.

"It's not the right time for you to know," she smiles, "see you."

I frowned and froze. The time suddenly stops for a few seconds and I still couldn't get whatever she was saying. That long words she said in the beginning, it shocked me somehow. It was too much for my mind to process. Whatever she might be thinking; whatever intention she had when she said that to me, or perhaps nothing at all. It was good to know, anyway...

Disclaimer: this is a work of fiction.

Friday, January 06, 2017

Alasan kamu harus pakai Zenius.net sekarang juga! #ReviewZenius

"...an education isn't how much you've committed to memory, or even how much you know. It's about being able to differentiate between what you know and what you don't know."


Haloo! Selamat tahun 2017 semuanya!
Hehehe, sekali-sekali pakai bahasa Indonesia nggak papa yah, rasanya udah lama banget nggak nulis pakai bahasa Indonesia. Hmm, sebenernya alasannya bukan itu sih, tapi kali ini aku bakal ngenalin kalian semua sama "sesuatu" yang mengubah pandanganku tentang dunia, ilmu pengetahuan, psikologi, pendidikan, hidup, politik, dan lain lain. My major turning point in life selama ini adalah berkat *drumrolls*..... ZENIUS!! apaan banget ya gak jelas bgt :') Jujur aja deh tadi mau pake gue-lo gitu biar kerasa Zenius banget tapi rasanya agak kurang nyaman aja, maklum orang Jogja, ya walaupun kadang pake terms itu sama beberapa temen sih, tapi gini aja gapapa deh ya biar lebih enak hehehehe.

Apaan sih zenias zenius mulu dari tadi... emang Zenius apaan sih??

Aku mau cerita dulu deh, sebenernya aku ketemu Zenius udah sejak tiga tahun yang lalu, pertengahan kelas 10 gitu, dan seketika itu aku langsung jatuh cinta. Literally, die-hard in love dan head over heels sama Zenius!! Cie kaya apaan bgt y. Tiap hari kerjaannya mantengin website Zenius... dari pagi nontonin video-video Zenius tiba-tiba gak kerasa udah sore aja, yang gratis doang tapi, maklum gak modal. Waktu itu masih jadi regular member dan tiap kali lagi asik-asiknya nyimak penjelasan Bang Sabda, Bang Pras, dkk yang gaul dan seru abis tiba-tiba disuruh berenti gara-gara dikode suruh jadi premium member mulu. Kan kesel:( Tapi walaupun gitu, tetep aja dilanjutin cari video-video gratis yang lain... maklum bener-bener gak modal hahahaha. /plak

Berawal dari nonton video-video gratisan itu, akhirnya waktu kelas 11 aku tergoda buat jadi premium member. Caranya gampang banget! Bisa pesan online atau hubungi customer service lewat sms, pin bb, whatsapp, dan Line. Pembayarannya bisa kamu transfer lewat atm, Indomaret, dan Alfamart. Gampang kan? Untuk jadi premium member, kamu bisa milih untuk beli voucher elektrik 1 bulan - 12 bulan. Sebenernya, Zenius punya produk lagi namanya CD Multimedia Learning dan Xpedia 2.0 bentuknya CD jadi kamu nggak perlu kuota untuk mengakses videonya (produk-produk Zenius). Isinya kurang lebih hampir sama, tapi untuk Zenius Xpedia konten yang bisa kamu akses terbatas sesuai bidang yang kamu pilih sedangkan untuk Zenius.net kamu bisa akses semua konten. Detailnya tentang Xpedia, kalian bisa merujuk ke sini.

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Video-video-video di Zenius itu lengkap banget deh. Kalian bisa akses semua konten dari SD kelas 1 sampai SMA kelas 3! Bahkan di setiap videonya juga ada latihan soal yang bisa kalian download beserta pembahasannya. Gak cuma materi yang lengkap banget, tapi di Zenius juga dilengkapi dengan arsip soal Ujian Nasional, SBMPTN, UM, sampai UM-Stovia pun mungkin ada! Lengkap banget gak sih? Terlebih dulu waktu kelas 10 dan 11 lumayan sering gak masuk sekolah karena bolak-balik ke lab UGM untuk ngurusin penelitian ecek-ecek anak sma. (My research experience)

Alhasil kalau dihitung dari kelas 10-11 nggak masuk sekolah bisa sampai 1-2 bulan dan ketinggalan banyak banget pelajaran dan ulangan. Giliran sekalinya masuk... langsung ulangan dan akhirnya remidial menumpuk gak karuan karena gak ngerti sama sekali, nilai-nilai jeblok, gak ngerti lagi mau ngapain dan harus mulai dari mana. (Hehe malah curhat) Maklum aja otak-ku agak lemot dan gak secepet teman-teman yang lain dalam mencerna perlajaran, akhirnya aku langsung beli yang setahun karena yakin banget bakalan kepake sampai kelas 12. Hehe.
“The best thing for being sad," replied Merlin, beginning to puff and blow, "is to learn something. That's the only thing that never fails. You may grow old and trembling in your anatomies, you may lie awake at night listening to the disorder of your veins, you may miss your only love, you may see the world about you devastated by evil lunatics, or know your honour trampled in the sewers of baser minds. There is only one thing for it then — to learn. Learn why the world wags and what wags it. That is the only thing which the mind can never exhaust, never alienate, never be tortured by, never fear or distrust, and never dream of regretting. Learning is the only thing for you. Look what a lot of things there are to learn.” 
― T.H. White, The Once and Future King

Sejak kenal Zenius aku mulai menyadari kalau belajar itu bisa dibawa seru dan nggak membosankan sama sekali. Serius deh... jujur aja aku orangnya agak skeptic, yang namanya belajar tuh ya di kelas apa bimbel/privat gitu, kalaupun online paling 5 menit kemudian udah lupa lagi. Dari dulu setiap ada advertising tentang online-course atau apa pasti cuma mikir, "they don't really educate their customers, do they?" "marketing strategy crap." dan sebagainya. Tapi Zenius enggak kaya gitu...gak sama sekali. Bahkan, I once sempat nyoba salah satu platform belajar online yang lain, itu lhoh yang sukanya dateng di sekolah-sekolah dan iklannya M*audy Ayunda sebut saja ****** ehehehe itulah pokoknya... tapi jadi ngantuk karena berasa belajar di kelas. "Yaelah kelas mulu gedeg juga." Bosen kali hidup rasanya di kelas mulu kaya gada tempat lain aja:') Anyway ******* users jangan butthurt ya, it is a matter of taste kok! Tapi di Zenius, belajar... tuh rasanya gak kaya belajar... (ya rasanya kaya belajar sih wkwk) tapi bener-bener enjoy dan nggak cuma menghafal, tapi kamu bener-bener didorong untuk paham konsep! 

Guys, education isn't how much you've commited to memory, or even how much you know. It's about being able to differentiate between what you know and what you don't know. Mungkin di satu titik kamu bakal merasa kamu sudah tahu, tapi semakin banyak kamu belajar, membaca, observasi, dan lain-lain kamu bakal semakin merasa kalau kamu nggak tahu apa-apa. Well, I don't know for sure but that's just how important I think education is.
"Education is not the learning of facts, but the training of the mind to think." -Albert Einstein
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Esensi pendidikan yang makin lama makin hilang dari sistem pendidikan di Indonesia saat ini: rasa ingin tahu terhadap ilmu pengetahuan. Lack of curiosity. Iya benar kita sekolah, belajar dari pagi sampai sore, tapi tujuannya somehow udah bergeser jadi belajar untuk cari nilai aja. Jujur aja deh, mau bilang sesibuk apapun sebenernya kita masih selo sih, masih bisa main dan melakukan kegabutan di jam-jam kosong dan lain sebagainya. Serius deh padahal belajar itu seru banget asik parah!! Students these days study only for their grades that some people becoming ambitious, ended up cheating. Ya enggak semua sih. Gak bisa juga sepenuhnya menyalahkan satu pihak, karena dari lingkungan kita juga dituntut seperti itu. Though, we are blessed with brains to choose what to do sih;) Akhirnya dari situ makin lama generasi kita makin kehilangan integritas dan bisa memicu bigger problems in the future; corruption etc. Do you really want to see your country suffers because of our ignorance? 

"Education is the most powerful weapon which you can use to change the world" - Nelson Mandela

Gara-gara Zenius juga, sekarang aku kelas 12 sering banget ditanyain "Kamu bimbel dimana?" dan pertanyaan sejenis lainnya. Dan jawabanku selalu "Aku nggak bimbel. Zenius aja" cielah dan responnya macem-macem, dari "Zenius?" "Zenius apaan buset" "Kamu udah jenius gitu maksudnya?" Lah nilai aja do re mi fa sol-_- Sampe-sampe kadang di kelas berasa jadi spg Zenius tiap hari ditanyain Zenius mulu. Bang Glenn, ini gak ada hadiah khusus buat promosi gratis ya? /plak  Hm selain itu juga aku mager-an sih dan lebih suka belajar sendiri di rumah soalnya bisa belajar di kamar sambil joget-joget sambil nonton youtube dan makan atau sambil tiduran eh malah terus ketiduran. Lah ga belajar dong-_-

Dulu waktu kelas 9 sempat ikut bimbel sih, tapi biasalah kaya anak-anak pada umumnya, sering nggak masuk karena mager. Hehe. Belajar tuh moodnya ganti-ganti, kalo aku personally mood belajar biasanya baru muncul waktu malam hari atau midnight. Lagian enak banget kali di zaman yang udah serba canggih where humans rely on technology dan somehow glued to their phone 24/7, kenapa nggak dimanfaatin aja buat hal yang baik? Kaya salah satu quotes yang ada di homepage Zenius
"Social media is an investment of valuable time and resources. Surround yourself with something worthwhile." 
Rather than being dumb people who uses smartphones, why don't break the stereotype by yourself? Salah satunya dari memulai kebiasaan memanfaatkan internet untuk hal yang baik. Gara-gara ini juga, sekarang setiap mau melakukan sesuatu jadi mikir "Do I really want to invest my time on this?" atau ketika download aplikasi di hp mikir lagi, "Does it really worth it? Output apa yang bakal didapet dari ini melakukan hal ini dan ini?" 

Tapi, ikut bimbel juga gak salah kok!! Justru aku salut banget sama orang-orang yang semangat bimbel/privat (dan gak mager-an kaya aku :') wkwk), lagipula selagi ada waktu, tenaga, dan resources kenapa engga? Dijamin gak akan nyesel. OH! Anyway Zenius tuh ada bimbel-nya juga lho!! Di daerah Jakarta tapi gatau dimana yang pasti engga ada di Jogja. Mungkin kalo Zenius X ada di Jogja, aku bakal pertimbangin ikut bimbel juga sih hehehe. Apapun pilihan kalian dalam belajar semuanya pasti baik, pokoknya jangan sampe lupa sama esensi mencari ilmu pengetahuan deh. 

Hmm balik lagi ke Zenius nih setelah ngelantur panjang. Nah, di Zenius ini kalian selain bisa nonton video-video pembelajaran, kalian bisa baca artikel-artikel keren di blog Zenius.

Wah ada juga? 

Iya dong. Udah dibaca semua malah, HUAHAHAHA hardcore emang parah serem abis #loveisblind, update lagi dong!:( Berawal dari situ aku jadi tau konsep Deliberate Practice. Apaan tuh? Jadi Deliberate Practice adalah... ah ga seru kalo aku jelasin, mending kalian baca langsung artikel Deliberate Practice-nya Bang Sabda.. Yang pasti, I learn the hard way that talent is overrated dan sebenernya kita bisa melakukan apapun yang kita pengen lakukan through deliberate practice itu sendiri. Idih apaan sih makin bingung? Wkwk yang penting baca aja deh dijamin bakal memotivasi kalian semua! W a j i b. (Hmm, kalo gamau baca kalian bisa dengerin audio nya juga kok!) Tapi harus ya. Hahaha #maksa

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huaha nemu nih

Aku mau cerita lagi nih, cerita mulu perasaan, jadi sejak SMA kebiasaan membacaku agak menurun gitu. Dari dulu sebenernya suka baca... dari SD udah sok-sokan baca bukunya Janice Vancleave yang Proyek-Proyek Ilmu Bumi (walapun gak selesai juga sih hehe), buku-buku ensiklopedia, novel detektif, novel classics, dan terutama yang berbau astronomi! Suka banget. I AM IN LOVE WITH ASTRONOMY FOR AGES. (I wrote a few articles related to astronomy before) Sebenernya ini juga kode pengen dikasih buku sih abisnya science and astronomy-related semua:P

Sejak SD sampai awal SMA selera buku-ku ya genre-nya ya antara itu (except teen-lit, though I read classic love stories too). Terus waktu itu iseng baca bukunya Merry Riana (eng-ver) terus mulai termotivasi lagi, Kak Merry rekomen bukunya Anthony Robbins yang Awaken The Giant Within. Akhirnya langsung beli dan suka banget! As in banget banget. Akhirnya mulai deh haus buku lagi.. cari rekomendasi di goodreads, book-bloggers, sampai akhirnya ketemu postnya Bang Glenn (buku part 1, part 2) dan Bang Sabda (referensi buku) ... akhirnya makin hyped setelah tau genre buku yang disukai mirip banget! Maaf ya nyama-nyamain:( Dari dulu yang gak pernah kepikiran tentang business & motivational books because I thought itu bukunya buat orang tua (pemikiran yang salah banget emang). Ehh malah sekarang... buku favoritku adalah 7 Habits of  Highly Effective People-nya Stephen Covey!!

Nggak nyesel dulu ngikutin saran rekomendasi buku dari tutor-tutor Zenius yang keren abis, kalau di toko buku pasti selalu sempet-sempetin buka references dari Zenius. Ambil ini, ambil itu, kembaliin ini, ambil ini, ambil lagi... pulang-pulang bisa bawa 3-4 buku. Gara-gara Zenius. #puttheblameonzenius #loveisblind2 Bahkan akhir-akhir ini lagi suka baca tentang wars dan politics. Genre apapun dibaca, tujuannya ya untuk broaden my horizon dan insights. Setelah itu jadi sadar, kalau buku-buku kaya gitu definitely worth to read dan life-changing! I see the world in a different way in a matter of perspective. Very much. Significant. 

Sejak aku baca artikel-artikel di Zenius, aku sadar bahwa di umur-umur kita saat ini dimana tenaga kita masih banyak, kita masih mampu untuk belajar dan bekerja, explore  as much as you can apapun itu entah leadership, ikut organisasi, social programmes, research, observe, learn new things, etc. I learn the hard way that I shall invest my youth with beneficial activities. Zenius juga mengubah konsep time management aku, dari yang awalnya time oriented... yang justru bikin aku ngerasa tertekan dan kewalahan menjadi task oriented dimana aku tetep bisa menyelesaikan tasks-tasks dan ngelakuin hal-hal lain yang aku suka.

Hasilnya apa? Di tahun 2016 lalu aku belajar beberapa bahasa asing baru: French, Japanese, and Korean all by myself. Bukan maksud sombong, jujur aja kalo ditanya skill seberapa masih sangat-sangat basic. Tapi selain belajar bahasa-bahasa itu, aku juga belajar their way of thinking. Temen-temen beberapa ada yang tanya "How did you learn all those languages?" "Kamu gak capek apa nambah-nambahin tugas aja?" I don't know... I just did. How? Because I am happy doing it. School may not determine our future, but I somehow believe that what you do in your spare time for good things could determine your future.

Buat temen-temenku, yang saat ini mungkin masih kelas 12 juga dan bentar lagi bakal ikut SNMPTN, SBMPTN, UN, UM, UTUL apapun itu, mau impian kalian di PTN A, B, C atau PTS, atau malah pengen study abroad. Just believe in yourself. Bahkan meskipun orang-orang menghina/mock and let you down, don't stop believe in yourself. You may not be the brightest student di kelas nor you have any achievements, but you surely have something within yourself yang orang lain enggak punya. Kalau bukan kamu yang percaya dan push yourself to the limits, siapa lagi?
“A star falls from the sky and into your hands. Then it seeps through your veins and swims inside your blood and becomes every part of you. And then you have to put it back into the sky. And it's the most painful thing you'll ever have to do and that you've ever done. But what's yours is yours. Whether it’s up in the sky or here in your hands. And one day, it'll fall from the sky and hit you in the head real hard and that time, you won't have to put it back in the sky again.” 
― C. JoyBell C.
Hmmm gitu deh sekilas cerita tentang Zenius. Sebenernya masih pengen cerita panjaaaaaaaaang banget tapi nanti kalian capek bacanya :( (iya kalo dibaca:((( ) wkwk. Gadeng, I am happy enough to share this with all of you guys. And I hope it helps, though thousand gratitudes and praises would never enough to express how happy I am being one of Zenius member. Ciao. To summarize, ini kelebihan dan kekurangan Zenius menurut opiniku...

Kelebihan: 
- "In depth concept mastery through insight AND addictive drills" Bener banget! Kita bener-bener dilatih untuk paham konsep dan bukan sekedar menghafal.
- Guru privat 24/7!! Gak nyaranin sks sih, tapi kalau kepepet dan sakaw fisika... boleh dicoba.
- The reason why learning is one of my hobby right now
- Lebih dari 46.000 video dan 2,7 modul ter-download!
- Affordable price yet really worth it.
- Jempol friendly! Bisa diakses lewat pc, tablet, smartphone, laptop, etc. (Mobile-designnya juga ringan banget)
- Mind Transforming, claimnya sih "More than just Ulangan / UN / SBMPTN.. postulates, evolution, war histories etc... you’ll love them like you never have before." No lies. You'll love it as much!!
- SUPER FUN!! Jujur aja  jokesnya kocak dan garing at the same time mana sukanya muncul di tengah-tengah video sampe bisa ngakak tengah malem hahaha...
-; dll. (dll ini pokoknya banyak banget deh:( )
Couldn't be any happier and grateful udah dipertemukan sama Zenius, positive positive positive:) Gak ngerti aku jadinya kaya apa kalo nggak pakai Zenius. Terimakasih! #terharu

Kekurangan:
Nothing. Well, beberapa video ada yang suaranya gemeresek-gemeresek gitu sih but it's not a big deal to me. #loveisblind3
Not being biased but I am supeeeeeer satisfied.

Rate:11/10 (hehe mesin rate-nya rusak/


Infografik 2016 perbandingan produk

Tapi... aku masih bingung nih harus beli produk yang mana... bantuin huhuhu:(

Daripada bingung, coba kalian baca lagi ulasannya Bang Glen nih: Kalo belajar pake Zenius, mending pake produk yang mana?





























Catatan:
Saat ini masih kelas 12 jadi kalau ditanya impact langsung belajar dari Zenius untuk pengalaman masuk SBMPTN, UM, dsb belum ada (kaya pengalaman-pengalaman Zenius users lainnya), tapi semoga aja Zenius ngebantu banget untuk masuk SBMPTN nantinya. Mohon doanya ya!! Hehe ^^ Anyway, request buku science populernya yah klo berkesempatan:P

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Friday, October 07, 2016

OPSI 2016 Experience: Unexpected


*Take a deep breath* It has been awhile...I guess. Time flies so fast that it's October already. It has been pretty hectic at school, since I am a last year student already. It means next year I'll have a national exam and college entrance exam and bunch of other language exams I volunteered to take because languages are lyffff. So people how are y'all? Life is interesting indeed! It contains unexpectable ups and downs. Today I'd like to share my personal experiences after I got the chance to experience another research competition with a bunch of amazing people this year! Yes, proud of  being an Indonesian. Well, I just hope that no one scolds me for writing this in English and called me sok inggris or sok apa whatsoever or being a grammar nazi while I was talking about my pride as being Indonesian. Does speaking in English to show the world that you’re proud of being the people of your country considered as a betrayer? un-nationalist?

Thursday, 22nd September 2016, second-last day of mid-term exam.
I threw my body on the couch as soon as I arrived at home. I don’t remember the exact time, but the long needle was pointing to number five when I reached my phone to check the notifications and calls. My friend, a research partner—Dinda, sent me a text message “Feb, gatau harus bersyukur apa gimana. LOLOS OPSI FEB-___- (Feb, I don’t know whether I should be grateful or what. QUALIFIED ON OPSI FEB-___- *terjemahan ngawur hehe*)”. And I was like...what the heck is opsi. There was silence. ...Five minutes later, I found myself running and jumping unconsciously in the living room while I still am holding the phone in my hand, half awake.

“What even? Are you going crazy?” “OPSI mah!!@#!$” In which my mom has zero idea what OPSI is. So do I. Truth is, I’ve never thought about research ever again, honestly, for my focus was on languages these months. I don’t even think that we will make it through it since we thought it was over since last month so probably we just didn’t make it. BUT MIRACLE HAPPENS. I mean...Allah’s will!

There was one more team from my school, so it will be the four of us. So we contacted our school’s counselor, fix this fix that, check documents and that. In Saturday we were told that there will be a counseling/TC as DIY team for four days from Monday to Thursday. Friday will be the only free day, in which in that day we will pack stuff and make sure we didn’t miss any single thing. And at Saturday, we will go to Jakarta by train. We stayed in Jakarta for 5 days. It means...I am off from school for two weeks! I really don't know whether I should be happy or sad.

Monday, 26th September 2016 - Thursday, 29th September 2016 (Intel Galileo Board Project and TC OPSI)
We went to the Department of Education in Yogyakarta at 8 am until 4 pm to participate in Intel Galileo Board Project in which we were explained on how to use the new Intel Galileo Motherboard type Arduino Uno. Honestly, I learned basic C language last year, but I still have no idea about programming. Human language is easier for my slow brain T_T. And I thought it was dope! Though in the end, I can't even try it since it doesn't support Windows 8.1 to run the program. At last, I learned a lot of things and it was a whole new experience for me.

At 4 pm, we continued to Hotel Cailendra to participate in TC which took 4 days in a row to prepare OPSI 2016 as DIY team. We were one of the teams who didn't make it to Klinik Sains (don't know how to explain this), so we felt pretty...left behind as we know no one. It was a really tiring four days. Pretty depressing and worth to remember. It takes a lot of  energy as I felt really drained out that I whined a lot these days.

Me and Dinda always been crazy and starving and sleepy the whole time. We were drained out. As we can't work in the middle of people, so we isolated and locked ourselves in the room while we were doing our work. I remember it was midnight in the third day that we were soooo starving, so we decided to go out with a motorcycle and drove to the nearest supermarket to buy instant noodles and ramen. We knocked the bapak-bapak room a.k.a security to open the pantry's door...because we desperately want to eat ramen. AND WE MADE IT. It was the best feeling ever to eat ramen when you're so depressed of realizing that your expectation contradicts the reality. whoOOa. Hella cool line, ain't it?!

These four days...I was tired. Physically. And mentally. What I learned was that when you're depressed, all you need is ramen. Haha, no. I learned a lot of knowledge about research and other valuable things (though the ramen theory is included). And in those days, we suddenly remember how we really miss our Namche's counselors...as Mas Zak, Mas Rizqi, Mbak Dewi, Mas Afif, Mbak Tika, Mas Bagas, Mbak Fiesha. They told us so much more than that last year. No offense. Please be offended. It has been a long time, hasn't it?

p.s:
- I wrote this in the train on my way to Jogjakarta. I am so gabut alias gaji buta alias don't know what should I do. hehe.

Monday, September 12, 2016

Pondering Over Al Qur'an

أَفَلَا يَتَدَبَّرُونَ الْقُرْآنَ أَمْ عَلَىٰ قُلُوبٍ أَقْفَالُهَا

“Will they not then ponder the Qur’an or are there locks upon their hearts?”[Muhammad, 47:24]


Astaghfirullahaladzim,

Dear brothers and sisters, how many times do we complain in a day? How many times are we blaming the conditions we have in life? How often are we blaming our condition and being ungrateful of it? 

How many times we dedicated our times for Allah and pondering over Al Quran over 86.400 seconds He gave every day? Perhaps if we are able to see the size of the blessing coming, we will understand the magnitude of the battle we are fighting. But even if He allows us to see it, do you think we are able to deal with it? 

كِتَابٌ أَنْزَلْنَاهُ إِلَيْكَ مُبَارَكٌ لِيَدَّبَّرُوا آيَاتِهِ وَلِيَتَذَكَّرَ أُولُو الْأَلْبَابِ
“It is a Book We have sent down to you, full of blessing, so let people of intelligence ponder (liyaddabbaru) its Signs and take heed.” [Saad, 38:29]
But, Mashallah..have you ever wondered? What if it was us, the ones who were talked about in this verse. Mashallah brother and sister, how ungrateful we had been... (read this...)

Dear brothers and sisters, let's look in ourselves...
are there locks, 

upon our hearts? 


Friday, August 19, 2016

Trust Issues


I have a lot of trust issues. Every time I tried to trust people in the past, I've been let down, and now I thought it is easier and less painful to just rely on myself. I have always tried my best to see the good in others and expecting every single person in the world have a good intention. I've never thought that there is some evil in people (unless they have problems with their psychology or something). I've always believed that most people are good, and the pure evil ones only make up less than 2% in the world. 

I was really sure until I finally in this point where I questioned my own paradigms. Was I wrong? For expecting such thing from people? Do I really worth the trust..or am I just easy to be fooled at? Do people really broke their trust...or was I just disappointed? Was it only me...who assume the worst before it happened? Was it my fault..or was it, theirs? Do I really have trust issues...or was I just trying to avoid the pain? 

Even if I knew the answer, does it really matter? Does it really worth it?

And I've learned the hard way that never rely on anyone,

فَتَوَكَّلْ عَلَى اللَّهِ إِنَّكَ عَلَى الْحَقِّ الْمُبِينِ
"So, rely upon Allah; indeed, you are upon the clear truth." Qur'an 27:79

وَتَوَكَّلْ عَلَى اللَّهِ وَكَفَىٰ بِاللَّهِ وَكِيلًا
"And rely upon Allah, and Sufficient is Allah as Disposer of Affairs." Qur'an 33:3

And I am sorry to you...
And I ask for Allah's forgiveness.
That if I have a lot of mistakes, as I don't have the same pure heart as yours. Dear brothers and sisters, keep me in your prayer and I will keep you in my prayers, and if I did something wrong, please keep the ummah in our prayers...and ask for His guidance to keep us on the right path. To give us a sincere heart to forgive people. Ask Him to lift whatever burden...in our hearts.

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

Perhaps


It was nothing like sunbeam,
or a thick forest green
Not even a deep crystal clear blue,
in those sparks still glow
It was a pure and innocent all analyst couldn't care less
One thing I know that I was lost
Ought to be carried off by uncertain
Letting it in and being unaware of consequences
Lost in a world of a beautiful scene

Maybe I write too much outlandish poems
or read too many books
Where I find pleasure in string words
Spending hours pairing rhymes
To embrace my fictional world
into sentences that I don't even understand
But one thing that I know too well
In between transparent wave they've told me
That the seas and the forests envied you
For the world reflected inside yours
is not the world we used to know

Nobody ever bothered to tell you
They are hickory against deep mud oak
And when it meets sunlight they beam
Two perfect orbs the same shade as nature after it rains
burning with the light of a thousand suns
Bewitched in between my souls
Persuaded in matrimony,
beholding as I was going away
Don't think it was too much, it was just a metaphor
Just a little to believe in realism, soon be drenched away

What do I know of bone-deep lonely, 
of the beautiful freeze, 
of a running circuit through the stars 
until all landmarks are my own staring eyes
Or maybe I am scientist, 
staring deep through a telescope
Convex lens collects light and focuses it
into a distant galaxy 
that has not had the chance, 
to be named

And perhaps you should know,
in between uncertain lines somehow I wished
that I still do

[17.8.2016]

Saturday, August 13, 2016

My 7 Favorite Japanese Youtubers: How I Learned Japanese in a Fun Way!

I've been learning Japanese for almost a year and I still am not fluent yet (anyone could you please tell me how it is done pls?!). My kanji writing, especially, is still soooo poor. Remembering strokes and its onyomi & kunyomi are like the hardest challenge in learning Japanese (well, even though I love kanjis!!). So does my speaking. Self-studying is difficult, I admit. But it's fun and enjoyable as long as you spend your time in a fun way. I've always been a fan of Youtubers and I watched Japanese and Korean youtubers to help me learn those languages, and today I would like to share my 7 favorite Japanese Youtubers!!!! Well, some are non-Japanese but they speak Japanese and live in Japan as well. So, here it is:

MissHanake

Hannah is my first non-Japanese-who-learns-Japanese Youtubers who I discovered loooong time ago before I discover another Japanese Youtubers. And I am grateful that I found her channel! I keeping up with her videos from the very start when she speaks very basic Japanese (in which that time I didn't understand any single word!) and now she speaks veryveryvery fluently! She even got into a newspaper for getting the highest score on Japanese exam. The thing is...she self-studied!! She is a British (I love British accent! wingardium leviosar.................) but she also speaks German, French, Latin and Dutch. Which is amazing. Now she is an Oxford student majoring in Japanese language if I am not mistaken. She inspired me so much!

Mimei

Mimei comes from New Zealand and she went to Japan in 2009 to study, I guess. She is a wife of Duncan (see below) and a mother of two little scottish fold rascals, Cinnamon and Latte! My favorite videos are her collaboration with Mahoto-chan as they are just so adorable!! I recommend you to watch the Interviewing Youtuber series and basically just watch. All. Of. Them. Oh and I really loveeee her hair.

PDRさん
I discovered Duncan a.k.a PDRさん after watching Mimei's channel and it showed up in my recommended videos bar. I was shocked to know that they are married already! His videos are mainly nonsense jokes but so funny (some are pretty rude and harsh and disgusting and contains a lot of dirty jokes but yeah). But he is so creative and actually just weird after all, but his weirdness is goldddddd. And I love it that way! Anyway, Mimei and Duncan have another channel for both of them -> BACOUPLE. (Relationship jokes goal?) lol


はじめしゃちょーHajime

Hajime's videos are basically wasting everything and talking so fast without spaces. He is a real nihonjin a.k.a Japanese. One time he bought tons of coca colas and mentos and poured it all in a bath tub, wanted to know whether it will explode or not (I was hoping I could see that scene though it didn't happen lol). And the other time he bought clays or just doing whatever he likes. I first discovered him from Mimei's channel too, where she interviewed Youtubers and there comes out this creature who makes me laugh even in the very first introduction. 

DoudemoMIRA
DoudemoMIRA a.k.a Kanadajin3 (her English channel), basically also a non-Japanese Youtuber but she lived in Japan. I don't know her much as I am not often watch her videos. But she likes to express her opinions toward issues in Japan and her daily life. I love her accent idk why it sounds so cute and unique and she is so kawaii!

MAHOTO
He is a real Japanese also!! His videos are just as weird as PDRさん, Mimei, and Hajime. Omg their circles. So nonsense and weird, but...I managed to watch the videos till the end (what did I do with my life). At least he is so cute and he got dimples when he smiles #uhwhat. He often showed up in Mimei and Duncan's channel, you should watch him speaking engrishu!!

KemushiChanロレッタ
She is also a non-Japanese Youtubers........I just realized that most of the Youtubers I recommend are basically foreigners?! Hahaha okay. I enjoyed her videos, and she shares a lot of information. I just realized that she hanged out with Mimei lately!

Actually I still have a long list of Japanese Youtubers such as Micaela ミカエラくまみき/Kumamikiバイリンガール英会話 | Bilingirl Chika, HIKAKIN, and many more. But, they are my favorite (and basically just comes out from the same circle xD)
So, what do you guys think about them? ^^